Blog #4: Messages from my Spirit Guides (Pt. 1)
I’ve been hesitant to write this next blog post because I’ve had a lot to process. And when I say a lot, I mean a LOT. In the span of one week, I had two life-altering and deeply empowering experiences that have solidified my belief in the spirit. First, a medium reading. Second, a reiki energy healing. I didn’t intend for the two sessions to happen so close together, but damn does the universe work in mysterious ways. Beyond my meditations and immersion into all things “spirituality” this past year, I can now say with certainty that the spirits of my mom and my Tatay (Tagalog word for dad, the name I call grandfather) surround me at all times.
Before I expand on the two experiences I had, allow me to do a little briefing for those who are new to these concepts (full disclosure, I am very new to this as well, so I’ll give a very basic rundown):
A psychic medium reading connects us with loved ones who have passed on. Each medium has a different method for connecting with spirits, but they all use their heightened intuition to deliver messages from our spirit guides. They can also provide us with a better understanding of ourselves to heal us from our grief and other hardships. The messages they relay are translated through symbols, feelings, actions and literal words/phrases/sentences that they see and hear. When messages flow through them, they have no additional context, so it’s our job to make meaning out of them. FYI, these sessions can take place remotely or in person (mine was remote).
Reiki energy healing is similar to a medium reading because the Reiki Master contacts our spirit guides to provide healing, but it’s a completely different practice and methodology. Energy healing may be considered more “hands on” because it literally removes our blocks of energy and replenishes us with positivity. While the Reiki Master taps various places on our bodies and activates certain chakras, they deliver messages from our spirit guides and other deeply empowering information to realign us on our path. These sessions can also take place remotely or in person (mine was in-person).
I have to say my first medium reading went pretty well, considering I wasn’t totally traumatized after. The medium, Charles, started the session by straight up reading me like a book. He called me out as being deeply empathetic with a sense of urgency and passion to do good in the world. He reminded me of the immense amount of pressure I put on myself to be the best at all times, and how some of that is projected onto me from others, but mostly it’s because I set the bar so ridiculously high. He acknowledged that I come from a background where everything is “black and white” but I am the walking gray area.
He suddenly heard the sound of pen scribbling on paper and shortly after drew connections to my freshly started blog. He told me that this blog is going to evolve into something bigger than I could’ve imagined one day, and that I should be open to the idea of flowing and growing with it -- wherever it may take me. He noted that my passions and career path have been nurtured from a very young age, and that it’s finally time to reap the benefits of my dedication. One of my favorite moments was when Charles randomly brought up the image of Spongebob Squarepants. He started to read into it as “you are a sponge for knowledge, you have a thirst to learn and you soak up everything you can.” While that is true, I also happened to be a die-hard Spongebob fan as a kid. I mean... the bedsheets, stuffed toys, posters, themed birthday parties, all of it. Through all the symbols and messages Charles shared, he connected me back with my inner child and reminded me of my ever growing power. This man, who I’ve never met before, made me feel understood on a transcendent level. That’s because he was relaying messages from the people who know me better than I know myself...
After Charles delivered so many deeply empowering messages about my divine path (past, present and future), my spirit guides started to creep in. They made themselves known with remarkably intimate traits, typically dealing with the medical issues associated with their death. At one point, Charles told me he had a bad taste in his mouth and asked if I had any smokers in the family (Tatay) who had passed. I said yes and he continued to expand, stating Tatay's desperate desire to be in my presence because he missed so much of my life since he passed away. Charles laughed and said that Tatay must have had a dark sense of humor because his message was that I “shouldn’t look up to him as a role model.” He also said that Tatay didn’t feel worthy to be in my presence, since witnessing everything I’ve become. Hearing that absolutely floored me because Tatay is the man who taught me to love learning so much as a kid. He motivated me to read everything I could and expand my mind. He was the one I always wanted to impress. Although I didn’t agree with his expression of self-deprecation, I know that was his way of sharing his absolute pride in me as his precious apo (granddaughter in Tagalog).
As happy as I was to learn more about myself and hear from my dear Tatay, I was pretty disappointed at this point in the reading because my mom never made her presence formally known. Considering how much I prayed to feel her presence, I started to lose hope in Charles. Once the reading ended, I asked Charles if he could confirm whether he was communicating with my mother. I told him that I deeply resonated with his messages because they sounded just like her voice, yet he never brought her up. Almost immediately, Charles experienced this sudden thirst and then asked if my mom had diabetes. Little did he know, my mother had gestational diabetes for all three of her pregnancies, with the last pregnancy being the cause of her death. I had no doubt it was her.
Charles went on to describe how my mom’s spirit was considerably reserved, and that’s why she didn’t make her presence known to him at first. In other words, her messages were meant for me and ONLY me (this made sense considering my mom was not the most “people person” when she didn’t have to be). After we broke down that wall, the messages of love started to overflow.
Charles described this feeling of overprotectiveness like a hug that surrounded his whole body and created this force field (my mom was the most protective force I’ve ever known, Matthew knows this better than anyone).
He started to stroke his knee suddenly and described this image of stroking a cat’s fur as a mutually soothing transfer of energy (this brought back old memories of my mom stroking my hair, the dimple on my chin, and the little flat spot on my head to help me fall asleep as a child).
He described the feeling of “unconditional love” as an image of gifting someone a basket of puppies and cooing at how sweet new life can be (my mom loved to use the untranslatable word “gigil” in Tagalog to describe the excitement, pure joy and cuteness overload she felt whenever she interacted with a puppy or a baby, especially our childhood pet, a french bulldog named Bruce).
He delivered multiple powerful messages, finding each word as they came to him:
“Put yourself out there. I can’t do it, but you can.”
“Everybody leaves a mark. Mine was small, yours is ever growing.”
“There is nothing less to be said between us, other than I love you.”
Charles left me with the final words that my energy, love and sensitivity is truly mirrored from my mother. He explained that our souls could be picked out of a line because they’re so intertwined. Our bond is unbreakable.
In the aftermath of the medium reading, I am still blown away by the accuracy of the messages. It makes so much sense that my Tatay would reveal himself earlier in the reading -- he’s been living in the spirit realm for a lot longer than my mom has. Even in the afterlife, he is supporting me in my wildest dreams. Charles also confirmed something that I’ve believed to be true especially after my mom died -- that the bond between mother and daughter is simply unbreakable, and our love for each other is literally transcendent.
I originally thought I would leave the medium reading bawling uncontrollably, but instead, I felt deeply empowered to approach this next phase of my life. My mom and Tatay have my back with every step I take. They supply me with positive, protective energy wherever I go. I’m deeply grateful for the experience I had to communicate with them, and I know that I still have so much farther to go in my spiritual journey. Now that my spirit guides are aware that I’M aware of their presence, our power together is multiplied.
Coming off that energy, I was ready to amplify all the goodness in my life with a powerful Reiki healing session. Stay tuned for my next blog post to hear about that experience…
